Thinking is hard. Right?
Okay, not all thinking. But lots of things are hard to think about. Not necessarily because they’re painful or might lead you to a railway line. But to actually consider and analyse something abstract in your brain. To hold it there and poke at it with other things you know, is difficult. Especially if it’s something you’ve only read about in passing or heard bits of mentioned by someone else. But whatever.
It’s so hard to collate all the things I’ve read over the days, weeks, months and years into something meaningful. Especially specifics. I read a lot. Not much in the way of literature or fiction. But lots of articles about the news or interest pieces. And I remember almost none of it. I know I’ve read several things today. But I can’t remember what any of them were about. I know that I don’t really read fluff either. I’ve no time for gossip. Although I do enjoy a dose of nonsense here and there.
I feel like I understand something while reading it. But then the subject, the details, the concepts. Whatever. They vanish from my mind. As I said before, I can’t bring in things that I already know and filter what I’m reading through that. I’m not sure I actually know anything. Errm.
Sometimes someone will bring up a topic in conversation and I’ll remember that I once read an article that is somehow relevant, but I remember nothing about it; “I sure can confirm that what you’re talking about is something someone else has written about and I’ve read about. Aaand that’s all I’ve got to say about that. Bravo!”
That’s how a lot of my conversations go.
Because of these things, I often struggle to form an opinion with any nuance. Things, especially of a political nature, are rarely black and white. Take the government’s austerity programme for instance. On the face of it, reducing government spending seems like the obvious way of cutting national debt and deficit. But it’s a specious argument. A country’s finances don’t work the same as a person’s. I don’t have an economy. But Britain does.
The government is typically the biggest spender in every sector. If they stop spending money, businesses don’t do as well, because they’re not getting as much money. So they have to fire people. So the government has to spend more on out of work benefits. So people have less money. So they spend less money. So businesses don’t do as well. So they have to fire people. And so it goes on.
I find my mind is stimulated more while I’m writing. I’m concious of what I’m writing and it’s held on
paper a screen, so I can fiddle with the thought or idea I’m having as I think and write. As I remember more stuff about whatever it is I’m writing, I’m then able to add this
It’s hard to make my mind up about anything.